“Say to the daughter of Zion,
‘Behold your salvation comes;
behold, his reward is with him,
and his recompense before him.’
And they shall be called The Holy People,
The Redeemed of the LORD;
and you shall be called Sought Out,
A City Not Forsaken.”
A week past from this Wednesday my husband and I went to the Focus on the Family special presentation of the film Mully; about a former street kid in Kenya who grew up to be a millionaire, and then followed God’s call to give it all away to rescue over 12,000 orphans in Africa.
So many things stood out about the film; how one person’s faithfulness blessed and changed the lives of so many; how crazy our lives will look if we actually do the things that God says we should do. Of course it stirred in my own heart the care that I have had for orphans for years.
But what stood out to me more than any of that was this last scene in the film. Charles Mully had been going for years into the slums at night to see which children were sleeping alone, and he would take them home with him. And it was possibly the most beautiful picture of God’s father heart that I have ever seen. This man, walking around looking for these children, in the dangerous dead of night in the worst neighborhoods, seeking them out.
He sees a little boy, probably no more than 2 years old, sleeping underneath the corner of a low roof. He taps on the wood beam near by saying “Oooheeeh” (which means peace be with you) until the little boy wakes up and looks up. He gestures to the child, who crawls out from under the tin roof. And Charles stands that child up, and he brushes the dust off his clothes, and he picks him up, and carries him home.
And you can see it in the kid’s eyes. The questioning, the wondering, even a little bit of fear. “Where is this man taking me? Why is he here? What does he want? Is this man good? What is he planning on doing with me?” And the desire to believe all those things is there in his eyes, just as much as the uncertainty is.
And I cried, of course I did. Because that is just exactly what God does to each one of us. He calls us out of the darkness, he dusts us off, he picks us up and carries us out of there, to his home.
“He has delivered us from the domain of darkness and transferred us to the kingdom of his beloved Son, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.” (Colossians 1:13)
And that child’s uncertainty? That’s exactly how I look at God. So often fearful and uncertain, even though he’s never given me a reason not to trust him, sometimes I still doubt his motives and his intentions. Luckily for me, my doubts never affect his response to me. If anything, it just makes him seek me out even more.
“Behold, I, I myself will search for my sheep and will seek them out. As a shepherd seeks out his flock when he is among his sheep that have been scattered, so will I seek out my sheep, and I will rescue them from all places where they have been scattered on a day of clouds and thick darkness.” (Ezekiel 34:11-12)
If you are in any way feeling like you are wandering today; if you wonder if God will find you there, you don’t have to look far into his word to see that he will. He is after your heart today; no matter what kind of week you’ve had. No matter how the doubts and the darkness threaten to overtake you.
Trust me, I know.
Yesterday I asked God to find me. I’ve been feeling so distant, so removed. The weight of the world presses like an elephant on my aching chest some days. I spoke aloud in the pre-dawn dark, and I said, “I MISS you Jesus. I want you to come back. Come back for me!”
And as my aching eyes searched the sky for some sign of his return, the words came. Just as he says the will. From the helper, the Holy Spirit, who reminds us of all that he has said;
I will never leave you, nor forsake you. I am with you to the end of the age. In this world you will have trouble, but take courage, I have overcome the world.
The voice of the Lion whispering, Courage, Dear Heart.
For your interest, here is the trailer to the movie I mentioned. It was on a limited run, but I imagine it will be available online before too long.