So I know anyone who has followed this blog this past month in the hopes of seeing semi-regular postings is probably disappointed. But it was one of those months; the holidays are always crazy, and combine that with the fact that at least one member of our family was sick every week since Thanksgiving, writing got pushed to the back, back burner. Some day maybe, I’ll figure out how to not let that happen. But that will probably when I do not have two kids age 3 and 16 months…they keep me on my toes.
I’ve been struggling with the idea of having this blog. I’m not completely sure how to use it well, or what I am even trying to accomplish by having an online presence here. More and more and feel drawn to the pen and the page, but then I just read a little post on my favorite writing website, Hope*Writers, and realized that if I don’t write where people can read it, then I might as well stick to a journal.
So the question is, am I writing because I think God sometimes gives me good things to say, that other people would be encouraged to hear? Yes. The other question is this, is there a way I can do that without feeling like I’m getting sucked into the social media, internet age vortex of MORE, BETTER, NOW? Is there a way this homebody, back-to-basics, play in the dirt, buy a piece of land in the mountains kind of a girl can write on the internet in a way that feels true to who she is?
I’ll be honest; the thought of having hundreds of followers scares me. I’m not even sure I want to write a blog that will be widely read; I’m afraid of the expectations that will be set upon me if I start doing anything consistently for a long time. What will happen if I can’t continue? What about when we have another baby someday and I’m back in the haze of new born sleep deprivation? What if inspiration fails to strike? I’m afraid I’ll let you down again.
So, no promises yet. (Not again, at least not this time.) I’m taking some time this New Year to reflect. I’m trying to figure out what God has for me here in this space. Your patience is greatly appreciated. And feel free to pray too, that always helps. 😉