A self-esteem boost powerful enough for every time I’ve ever needed it is this: I am a child of God. He is GOD, creator, most powerful, highest in the universe and I AM HIS CHILD! HE loves me that much. That He would adopt me whole heartedly. He does not only love me when I behave, or when I do everything that He asks me to do. He seeks after me even when I run away. Even when I ignore His voice. Even when I wonder whether my faith is real or not— He seeks after me because I am His child, and no one else can replace me in His heart. Even if I was the only person on this planet. Even if I was the only fallen one, He still would have sent His son to pay the ransom for my heart.
Can you believe it? That even though we live and breathe fallenness every day of our lives that Jesus gave us the right to become Children of God? I admit I have had days where I have wished that God would take it back. I shout “WHY DID YOU SEND HIM TO DIE FOR ME??? What a WASTE! Can’t you see who I am!?!”
And He says yes. I see. I see it all.
But… He is God. And the insane love that seems like weakness to our eyes is stronger still than our greatest strengths. And He will search for every last lost lamb until it is found.
John 1:10-13 NIV (My emphasis)
“He was in the world, and though the world was made through him, the world did not recognize him. He came to that which was his own, but his own did not receive him. Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God-–children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband’s will, but born of God.”